During that season, I began developing a framework that I called Grandeur Excellence. At the time, I believed I was creating something that could help people become better versions of themselves, and I put a great deal of thought into it and became deeply invested in developing the idea.
It was a system of intentional living focused on the positive evolution of the human mind, personal growth, self-discipline, and embodying a higher standard of conduct. Its ten virtues were Altruism, Equanimity, Indomitable, Inexorable, Magnanimity, Resilience, Sagacity, Sapience, Transcendence, and Perseverance. The practice was to take one virtue at a time and live it out through intentional action, reflection, and accountability.
But looking back now, I understand that the foundation of those virtues was still centered on self. They were virtues that I was trying to establish and serve through my own understanding rather than virtues that flowed from the Lord and were rooted in the Gospel of Jesus Christ.
In other words, I was still searching for a way to build something meaningful from within myself.
Even during that later season, I remained vulnerable to teachings that sounded profound and convincing. Some of the things this person was saying were ideas I had never heard before, and because I was still searching so intensely for truth, they sounded incredibly convincing to me.
Once again, I found myself encountering teachings that seemed to provide answers to the questions I had been asking.
